what i'm thankful for

so, i had intended on posting this yesterday, but life interferred and there was yesterday's post instead. so i'll post this today. yesterday, it got busy and i didn't around to writing it, meant to in the morning when i posted the other.

i spent my day being incredibly thankful that i wasn't trying to figure out how to make this thanksgiving especially wonderful because it might be my last one with my kids. i'm incredibly thankful that dr. babbit figured out what was wrong without delay, and that i had a diagnosis as fast as was realistically possible. i'm thankful that even tho dr. robinson is not "my kind of doctor" and i don't want to keep going to him, that he was here and knew the right meds and got me right on them. and that in all of that, it is 2011 and not 1995--when i would have been told to get my life in order because i had 3-5 years to live. and those years would not be pleasant ones either. painful, dr filled, bone marrow transplantation filled ones. i'm really thankful to alive today when amazing strides have been made, and when more are being made daily. i had a biologist friend tell me after looking at how gleevec and it's second generation drugs work, that he was sure there'd be a CURE in the next 10 years. a CURE. it would be amazing in a few years if instead of planning a funeral, if i could say i USED to have leukemia.

i'm thankful for my family who gathered around when they found out i was sick and because they are amazing supportive people. and my family that i chose did the same. i'm amazing thankful that my SCA family is filled with wonderful supportive people who let me complain when i needed to. and that they are my friends.

when i got the diagnosis i wondered a bit about what i had done to deserve having leukemia. perhaps the more relevent point would be to wonder what i did to deserve such amazing friends and family and luck as to have been diagnosed today instead of 20 years ago. thanks guys.... i look forward to 40 or 50 more days like today! it's the best.