sometimes it is incredibly difficult to remain positive. i am reminded of that poem: "If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs and blaming it on you..." it's by Rudyard Kipling... title "If". the shire is once again attempting to blow up. you know what, i'm tired of it.
one way or the other, i'm breathing deeply, and trying to stay calm and collected and uninvolved. it is not my problem. i keep saying this. :::it is not my problem::: i cannot change what other people do. i cannot change how they act. i can only change how i react. and in this case, there is no reason to react because, repeat it with me, THIS IS NOT MY PROBLEM.
in other news, the diuretic seems to be helping with the swelling. i'm down to 178, and my rings are back to falling off. interestingly my tongue feels too big for my mouth today. it's odd. not sure what's going on with that. i also have a bunch of bruises on my legs, which worries me at least a bit. i'll be asking about it at my appt on wednesday.
i didn't open the shop today because it snowed quite a lot and generally i find that no one shops on the first good snow of the year. it was cold, i didn't feel great, and it snowed about a foot or more. i figured that staying home and drinking tea and working on my sweater was a better use of my time (and energy).
otherwise than the negativity that is NOT MY PROBLEM, my day was lovely and warm and pleasant, hope yours was too... stay warm and dry!
How you react and act. React if just as important as how you act. React takes a lot more practice but people notice and usually take their cues from the majority. If you surround yourself with calm, in theory calm should be the main constant. There is so much negativity out there in the world doing what we can to be the positive is very important even if you don't think you are doing much it can really make a difference. I like to think of it as a ripple in the pond, what you do does influence others.
ReplyDeleteI am glad the diuretic is working for you! some sense of normalcy is good. The shop opening was a decision you had to make and people will that to deal with it in whatever way they choose. Let's hope it is in a positive way. :-)
Peace be with you!
Prayers and Hugs!!
I am so happy to hear this, I shall have to remember this mantra, it is so true, smiles...
ReplyDeleteI am so happy that the diuretics are working, sounds to me like Jeremy may have to give you a gift certificate for ring resizing or a pretty necklace to hang them on.