lately, today especially, i feel like i am incapable of dealing with the responsibilities i have. so in the next couple of days (i have tomorrow off) i'm going to do some soul searching and decide what things i can handle, and which i just can't do right now. this is not personal to anyone or anything. i am just feeling the difficulty of being sick, and feeling like i live life in a fog, and feeling like such an imposition on so many people.
some things will have to change. some responsibilities that i took on when i didn't know i was sick, or how sick i was, will have to go away. i need less going on in my life right now.
this blog is the one place i feel like i can actually express my feelings right now, so if you don't like what you're reading i'm very sorry. please let me say what i must in at least one place in my life.
*hugs*
ReplyDeleteHi Rita,
ReplyDeleteI totally understand what you are going through, I was diagnosed in Feb. of this year. I too have had to re-evaluate and give up many things. I also have a blog in case you are interested. It has many tips and much info on it as well as a whole lot of ydda yadaa yadda!
http://www.leukemiasurvivor.co/2011/10/leukemia-wins-this-round.html
My best to you, CML sister!
Michele
@michele--i've been reading your blog actually.
ReplyDeleteHugs, hugs hugs...
ReplyDeleteThat is a great plan!
ReplyDeleteSoul searching and praying for discernment are really good things!
You are weary and need to rest at His feet for awhile while you figure stuff out.
Be gentle with yourself this is all new.
You need to find your way.
Hugs and Prayers!!!