where did September go?

yeah. where did it go? christmas cannot be just 9 days away. it doesn't seem possible.

today was a bad day. i woke up feeling cruddy and unfortunately today, it just got worse. i had a couple cups of coffee and two fried bananas, then i went back to bed. because reallydrinking those two cups of coffee was completely exhausting. and it went downhill...

i've laid around all day long doing almost nothing, and i feel completely drained.

i'm feeling truly miserable and i am so not ready for christmas. sept. got away from me. october did too. and now november. and half of december. is this the new normal? months gone with nothing to show for it? whole days shot because i can't get up the energy to do things?

i don't want it. and i thought i was doing so well... and then it hit me that it is dec. 16, and i know when it got to be that.....