Buen Camino

so... it's been months, and that's partly for lots of reasons. i'm trying to quit concentrating on this disease i live with, and just live. things are going ok. and side effects suck.

BUT: i've made some decisions lately and you should know about them. about a year ago i caught the tail end of a Rick Steve's show about Spain that talked about the Camino de Santiago. for those of you who don't know, i'm a pretty committed re-creator of the middle ages, particularly the 12th century. and the discussion was that people who walk the Camino (a 480 mile pilgrimage from a French border town, across the Pyrenees into Spain and then most of the way across Spain) walk through tiny towns that have existed since the 12th century. that 12th century people walked the Camino. and i got enthralled.

so, for the last year i've been reading and seeking information about the Camino, thinking "some day..."

then about 2 weeks ago i got a hair-brained idea. to do it. not wait for someday. walk it. start training now. so, i've started walking. i'm out of shape and fat. but i'm walking. i'm making plans. dreaming. and working toward making my dream come true.

this walk.... i intend to walk away from my diagnosis. i'm going to keep treating my disease of course, but i need the symbolism i think. the symbolism of a pilgrimage. and the dreaming and planning. when i got diagnosed i allowed my disease to make entirely too many decisions about my life. i get to make the decisions. this disease? i have it. it does not have me. i will not allow it to dictate me life. i'm living with it... not allowing it to live me.

so, i'm debating whether to change the name of this blog, start a new one, exactly what to do. what do you think?